#mentalillness

Hello Again, Friends. I must once again ask for your assistance. Just as my scheduled hours at work finally started picking up, my partner's hours at his job have dipped. I've also got to make a hefty ($250) auto insurance payment since we've been carrying a past-due balance for so long. I've got to keep that policy active so my partner can commute to work. We've been living in this apartment that we love for almost a year now, and we've only been able to do so because of the community here on the #Fediverse. Your generosity has subsidized our very survival. Unfortunately we still need your help. (I know. Trust me, we're tired of it too.) We're trying our best to get on our feet and life is really fucking frustrating sometimes. We get knocked down, but we get up again. You're never gonna keep us down. Anyway, we want to hang onto this amazing apartment but we can only do so with your support and generosity. Dammit I'm tired. So very, very tired. I desperately need to get my shit together but goddammit I'm so fucking tired. I promise you we're trying our best. Anyway.. I'm sure by now you all know the drill. We are grateful for every donation whether it's $5 or $500. Sadly we still need every single dollar we can get. My partner will be a ball of anxiety until we make it. Thank you in advance for your support. If you're willing AND able, please boost and if possible donate. If you can't donate, please *do NOT feel guilty* for being in the same boat as us. Your feelings about it are valid and understandable but rest assured you needn't feel bad. Venmo: https://venmo.com/thegizmotwins Cashapp: https://cash.app/$thegizmotwins PP: https://www.paypal.com/paypalme/gizmo1982 GFM: https://gofund.me/12171be3 #Solidarity #BPD #PTSD #Poverty #MentalIllness #HousingRequest #MutualAidRequest @mutualaid

FOURTH (presumably final) UPDATE: I still want to try and pay the back the person mentioned below if we can, but at the behest of my partner who insists that we follow the directive of the person mentioned below, we will focus on getting rent covered. THIRD UPDATE: Good news, everyone! A very kind soul from here on the Fediverse has loaned us enough that, combined with nearly every penny we have, I was able to just pay the mechanic bill over the phone and will be trekking on public transit later to pick it up. HOWEVER, this risks putting them in a bind because this was their money earmarked for paying bills. This goes against my rule about not contributing to our fundraisers unless they can safely do so without risking their own circumstances and I loathe that I've had to put them in that position to cover my screwups. **Long story short, I need to return $600 to them as quickly as possible. If anyone can help shoulder that burden at all, without causing *you* harm as well, I would greatly appreciate it.** The total bill with taxes and fees came out to a painful $2,160, so I'm adjusting the goal and current progress to more accurately reflect where we're at on this. I am insanely grateful for everyone's help, generosity and support. My partner and I literally can't survive without your assistance. SECOND UPDATE: Good morning pocket friends. We've made significant progress on this fundraiser and I'm hoping we can continue that momentum and prevent another disaster from occurring thanks to my stupid procrastination, because we're now about 24 hours away from the situation blowing up in my face. Thank you so much everyone for your help!! UPDATE: I spoke with the shop this morning. Total cost would end up being slightly over $2k because the charcoal canister has gone up in price from our quote a couple of months ago, however he is willing to slice some of the labor to bring it back to about $1800, if I give them the go ahead in the next two hours so he can get parts ordered. I had hoped they might be able to just do a portion of the work so that we could apply for a waiver on the emissions certificate for this year, but as I sort of expected all the problems with the car are interconnected and desperately overdue for maintenance. Also found out that the mysterious problem that made me keep the car parked for almost two months was due to the hose for the intake manifold had popped off, but I failed to ever consider just lifting the fucking hood to see what might be amiss. 🤦‍♂️ ============================================ It's taking every last ounce of willpower I can summon to escape my depression and executive paralysis long enough to even type this. Believe it or not, this post is far *less* self-deprecating than what I would really *like* to say. *deep breath* Hi Folks, Evidently I'm just not capable of being an adult. Instead of addressing crises promptly, I wait until they burst into a gargantuan bonfire. It's not an ideal habit. I've known that I've needed to get this car fixed for months now. I've gotten three temporary extension permits and now have no recourse but to get the car to the shop *tomorrow* or it'll be a sitting duck waiting for the parking enforcement tow trucks to spring into action, and that would cost hundreds of dollars to bail my car out of jail. While I've considered going car-free, we live in an area where having ones own vehicle is sort of a necessity. Wtaf is wrong with me that I would think it acceptable to wait until the last twenty-four hours I'm legally able to move my car, to try and raise nearly two grand to fix said car? 🤦‍♂️ Why 🤦‍♂️ can't 🤦‍♂️ I 🤦‍♂️ get 🤦‍♂️ my 🤦‍♂️ shit 🤦‍♂️ together 🤦‍♂️ o 🤦‍♂️ m 🤦‍♂️ f 🤦‍♂️ g 🤦‍♂️ We have been in this apartment for eight months now and *still* can't manage to pay for rent without help, which I'm going to need to raise money for as soon as we finish *this* fundraiser. It's embarrassing that we still can't make it on our own. *sigh* I'm sorry.. I'm sort of at a loss for what else to say. Mea culpa I guess. If you're willing AND able, please boost and if possible donate. If you can't donate, *do NOT feel guilty* for being in the same boat as us. Your feelings about it are valid but rest assured you needn't feel bad. Venmo: https://venmo.com/thegizmotwins Cashapp: https://cash.app/$thegizmotwins PP: https://www.paypal.com/paypalme/gizmo1982 GFM: https://gofund.me/12171be3 #Solidarity #BPD #PTSD #Poverty #MentalIllness @mutualaid

Hi everyone, Friends, I apologize for being somewhat absent here the last few weeks. I'm not sure what has been happening to me exactly, but the best way I can describe it is that I sort of "checked out" mentally. Despite everyday life recently seeming to be falling into place for once, I just can't seem to handle being alone with my thoughts. I can't even seem to concentrate on Mastodon or even just surfing the web. Music has little grip on me either. Basically I've either been working, sleeping, or binging on the various Star Trek spinoffs that I've fell behind on for the last thirty years or so. Anyway.. my point is, I've allowed this burnout to consume me to such an extent that we are now in dire need to raise the remaining funds for October's rent in the next 24 hours. This month's goal is only $1,200.. I say "only" because in comparison to the previous few months, this is roughly 25% less than normal. It also will cover our massive electricity bill that we inadvertently allowed to balloon out of control while we were attending to other crises and desperately needs to be reduced, and car insurance so our policy isn't cancelled this weekend. It is my sincere wish that we can keep this momentum going despite my weird mental status lately, and maybe go a month or two without begposting. I can promise you I look forward to that happening as much as you probably look forward to not seeing me constantly panhandling. Thank you all in advance for your help and support. We couldn't make it without you. If you're willing AND able, please boost and if possible donate. If you can't donate, *do NOT feel guilty* for being in the same boat as us. Your feelings about it are valid but rest assured you needn't feel bad. Venmo: https://venmo.com/thegizmotwins Cashapp: https://cash.app/$thegizmotwins PP: https://www.paypal.com/paypalme/gizmo1982 GFM: https://gofund.me/12171be3 #Solidarity #BPD #PTSD #Poverty #MentalIllness #HousingRequest #MutualAidRequest @mutualaid

UPDATE: Good morning folks. We made some great progress the past few days but I'm getting worried as we draw closer to the deadline. This started with me hoping we'd somehow make it by midnight yesterday, and while we missed that goalpost we've still got a little bit more to go, and the sooner we make it the sooner I can extricate myself from the executive-paralysis I create for myself in any situation like this. ---------------------- Hello Everyone, My apologies for doing this even before I write an introductory post but it's almost 2:30am and I ran out of spoons about an hour ago. I'm on a new account but I still need to get rent covered so we don't incur massive late fees again like I did at the beginning of August. For greater details, please visit: https://beige.party/@LibertyForward1/117103331163296268 I'm including our payment links below in case anyone is unable to access the link immediately above. If you're willing AND able, please boost and if possible donate. If you can't donate, *do NOT feel guilty* for being in the same boat as us. Your feelings about it are valid but rest assured you needn't feel bad. Venmo: https://venmo.com/thegizmotwins Cashapp: https://cash.app/$thegizmotwins PP: https://www.paypal.com/paypalme/gizmo1982 GFM: https://gofund.me/12171be3 #Solidarity #BPD #PTSD #Poverty #MentalIllness #HousingRequest #MutualAidRequest @mutualaid